Thursday, October 3, 2013

A night~


A night without sleep, and I never feel sleepy at all. Rushing assignment but did nothing. wasted all my night :(
I feel so stress while the though is coming, I really pray that god helps me and solve it. I was thinking, how i enjoy my course? I like this course, but I'm always the worst result in my class. Sometimes, I feel so disappoint to myself. (Why am I so worst???)

What I gonna show my lecturer later? I did nothing! :( Feel like want to skip later. But next week gonna be the presentation week, and yet, I skipped once. Can't be the second time. *emoooooo

Seriously, a true friend ain't easy to find. I'm still finding. :) 
One of her was left.  :'(

And.. I think I liked someone. I think so. 

Random post today. I'm so kinda bored now. Waiting time to pass. 

TGIF~ Gonna back church tomorrow. :D *Happy kid
Hope the morning class end very fast. *pray pray

   

Tuesday, August 20, 2013



Suddenly miss my friend so much. We know each other since form 2 or maybe form 3. We did so much things together. We accept Christ, we served, we cried, we laughed, we shared our weakness, we 38, we yam cha together. Don't know why you will left us? I really treat you as my spiritual sister, I tell you all my things, weakness. Sometimes you really made me angry, but I still treasure that god arrange me to be my friend. I really hope that you'll come back and serve him again. God will always waiting for you and me too.

I really love you, my friend.


Saturday, August 10, 2013

Many are called few be chosen


It's Saturday. I love Saturday as it's holiday and also the day I back to my church :) I received so much words from sermon today. Pastor said, "many are called but less be chosen". It's not what you can do it's whether you want to do. Sometimes, I face a lot of problems and decrease my desire to god, starting to stop desire to god. I shouldn't stop my passion even though I back from peace heaven. I have to keep it up and moving on no matter how difficult the problems. As god is always beside me and he inside my heart. 

Be the one be chosen! ;) 

Should sleep early tonight. Have to wake up early tomorrow, hiking with church's friends. :D

Love you, Jesus
xoxo

Friday, August 9, 2013

3 days 2 nights camp

hello guys, i just came back from and I wanna share with you about my camp. ( No one will see my blog, but never mind lol)

I miss the camp so much. the camp what I feel so much of loves, so much of warms and so more. the camp organized by my church, call Encounter God Camp. Before i went to camp, leaders from church always mentioned, we will build a closer relationship with each other. I was thinking, how close we could build? Did we not close enough? Some people heard, how fun it is? There have no any ice break or games. But I could feel god's love is beside me everything. okay, let's start my blogging journey.

1st day~
We were on the way to Peace Heaven. Ultimately, we cam whore. Sometimes, cam whore could be our hobby.

with this pretty, she looks like mix but she not lol

And we cam whore AGAIN when we reach our room. lol 

After we do our stuff or all the things and ready for the 1st sermon.
Night time, it's a warriors night. Therefore, we have to put some make up our faces and looks like army. 


HAHA 3 pretties army lol



2nd day~
I woke up so early as I scare toilet full of people lining up for bath. There only 5 bathrooms for us and we have around 70 people using that toilet. No choice, I must wake up early for bath. When the pastor Jonathan was preaching, I was keep dozing off as I'm so tiredddd :( I know I not purpose sleep. I'm so sorryyyy :'( After that, we have the workshop for differences of position and I'm SFL. Melvin be the speaker. He not that bored, and he making with us. But I totally fall asleep while he's talking can't control my eyes and it's close so automatic. >< Okay, I skipped. After the workshop, we went to genting. Genting is so crowd due to Hari Raya holidays, so that's why. 







After we played, we found a place at outside, we shared with each other our testimony. the other group cried when they were sharing but my group were making fun with each other, so yea, no one cry.
I know we were late, we walked back to peace heaven faster for dinner and ready for the preach.

While waiting for the preach, and yea, we cam whore again xD

the 56J group (:

I enjoyed the night with Holy Spirit baptized. I cried like a baby and I never cry like this such a long time. I can feel god is beside me, he's inside my heart. He love me so much even though i did so wrong for him. I keep crying and crying, I could feel him so much. I hope time could stop forever at that moment.
Around 11.30pm, we gathered and shared our weak or what we received with each. I know that god always help me no matter how tough the problem that we facing it. I love the moment (:
the look we wearing pajamas :) 



3rd day~
It's the last day at camp. Started to miss the 1st day and 2nd day. God did touching thing around us. he showed his love to his sons and daughters. Although he said many times, but I still love the way he say. "Joanne, I love you. I always by your side. I always give you strength when you are weak. Don't underestimate yourself, you are good enough in my heart. I chosen you not because how you look, how good your result, and it's because you have a pure heart. I love you so much" I cried like baby again, i can't stop, tears are keep falling down from my eyes. I'm so blessed because I'm in god's presence.


What I learnt from this camp. 
- team work is very important. 
- build a good relationship with god and others.
- learn to share self weakness with others and don't keep inside the heart.
- love god more than everything.
- love your enemies.

Love you Jesus.
xoxo 








Tuesday, August 6, 2013

My Days~

Hello, it's been long time I didn't update blog. I'm so lazyyyy :(

Saturday night 3/8
I would like to share to all of you about my Birthday Celebration. 
On Saturday, my CG gave me a surprise. Just a normal surprise, they sang the birthday song while holding the cake. I think, just only that? But it's okay, at least they still remember my birthday LOL


A guy celebrated his cg bday with a watermelon. What a creative leader HAHA


I was making wish.
( I wanna be more pretty, be more rich, more attractive, more nice and bla bla bla..
but, most important things.
I wish my team can be growth, can be more mature in spiritual, and some..

taking photo always is our favorite. lol


Monday 5/8
That day 5/8 which mean is the day of my birthday. haha.. I'm so happy just because it's my birthday. It's not a normal day but a special day for me.
So, we went to Scott Garden Wong Kok for lunch. ( there have a large glass of milk tea only free for birthday people.) 

His birthday on 1/8 ( If i not mistake), so we have 2 big glasses of milk tea.
HAHA. LOL

 Random photos.. I didn't take much photo due to my camera battery was decreasing. :(

Long story they gave me the surprise.
It's begin from robbery. They rob me and get inside the car. Drive around the Scott Garden. At last, they gave the surprise at Scott Garden.
( I skip a lot of things in middle, cause it's quite a lot conversation, action inside. So, I skipped)



Monday night
Second round with my secondary friends. Kienmay and Shiuxian. Such a long time never see them, since we're so busy with our studies :( finally we met. We had dinner at Mon Boulangerie & Kitchen. 

Time to cam whore xD Girl's favorite. :) He look so grudgingly, he don't like to take photo, but I don't care. lol

 The 3 of us :)



Thanks this lengzai treat me dinner. (it's really expensive dinner, for me ><)
He can't smile lol no matter how many times i asked him to smile. 



My 6 years friendship with her. <3 (:

Once again, Happy Birthday for myself. I really thanks god created me. (DUHHH.. ==)
he gave me so many things. Can't describe him by words, i have a lot of things to say and there inside my heart.

Love you. xoxo
Joanne

Monday, January 7, 2013


这一天..

本来已经答应了公公去表妹家陪她,
但是就没有做到,
因为跟朋友去做survey,
也没有做到。T.T
很无奈叻 ><

所以公公就打电话给我,
还骂我为什么没有去陪她?
还说我以后不用在继续读下个学期了。
我知道这是他的气话,
我真的很伤心..
但是我在仔细想..

我读书又不好,
也考不到好成绩,
又不会去照顾别人的感受,
读书也在浪费我阿姨的钱啊,
干脆去做工更好!

他说的也没有错啊,
我就是那么差,
什么都是比别人差!
不想再浪费我阿姨的钱了!

我决定转校!
转去一个比较便利的学院,
不再向我阿姨拿钱了,
因为我不想再浪费她的钱供我这个读不到书的人。

虽然可能那学校没有我要读的科,
但是一定有一个适合我的科目!

神啊,
这些事不想给别人知道,
但是又想找个人来诉苦,
真的很矛盾!! ><
只好对你说,
求你领导我,
我该怎么办呢? :(

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

平安夜 :)
2012真的很快就过去了,
真的真的很不舍得。 :')

在2013年的第一天,
就做错事了。
给一位aunty在大庭广众骂,
还说要报警,拉我的车。

很多事情不想发生就是会发生,
但是你想它发生,它就是不会发生。

很多时候,
我都会在想。
我是不是不应该被接纳的那位?
我很差;
成绩也不好,不管我在怎样去努力都好;
我很自卑;
很没有用的人。
我都会去责备自己,
为什么要这样做??

我也很想要有一位朋友时时刻刻都陪着我,
但是,什么时候都找到真正的朋友??

人家说得对。
朋友可以很多,
真正的朋友就可能有一个。

被骂的时候,
我选择忍着眼泪,
把它像口水一样,
吞进去。

我真的不想在别人面前软弱,
就是因为我爱面子,
喜欢扮到什么事情都没有。

很快地,
我就要开学了。
成绩就要出了。
成绩会怎样,
who knows ? :)